Experiences
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Themes
Love, marriage, child loss, depression
John met his wife in Hawaii, at the top of 45 tall stairs.
John was a UPS driver. She worked at one of his stops. & when he got in his truck he looked all the way up the stairs & saw her in the window, waving at him.
On their first date, John taught her to surf.
On their wedding day, it was just the two of them, a beach, & a justice of the peace.
A year later, they were pregnant. They were reading books, going to Lamaze classes, & debating if their baby was a boy or a girl.
John felt like they had everything.
Then they lost their child.
Part one is this story.
Part two is the story of how he tried to understand loss, including psychedelic therapy.
Listen to John’s story:
Chapters
(00:00) Intro.
(02:51) John goes to Hawaii.
(05:31) John meets his wife.
(14:07) Deciding to have a baby.
(19:41) Something’s wrong.
(22:18) Some difficult decisions.
(25:25) The aftermath.
(31:21) Trailer for part 2.
Notes
Edits: To focus this episode’s themes and narrative, we cut down John’s analysis, observations, narrativizations, & story. We also cut all of Alex’s questions & comments. Other edits are limited to dead space, audio blemishes, unnecessary words, and unessential content. We consulted with John, & he approved this flow.
Theme song: Secret Wilderness’ theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field.