Experiences
MDMA + psilocybin, iboga. 5-MeO-DMT
Themes
Generational trauma, child abuse, forgiveness, growing
We re-enter Vaughn’s story as the course of his psychedelic therapy takes a turn.
For years, Vaughn’s experiences had taken him, he believes, into his family’s traumatic history. He met its villians & victims — many were both — & discovered he could free himself from their burdens by experiencing their experience.
This adventure, chronicled in part 1, went on for years.
But then things changed.
Psychedelics stopped taking him to his ancestors & started showing something else.
His childhood.
Chapters
(00:00) Intro.
(02:55) Alone in the crib.
(07:41) Starting smoking at 50.
(10:50) Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde.
(14:07) Forgiving dad.
(19:13) Inside the house.
(23:34) Why people choose to live.
Notes
Edits: To focus this episode’s themes and narrative, we cut down Vaugn’s analysis, observations, narrativizations, & story. We also cut all of Alex’s questions & comments. Other edits are limited to dead space, audio blemishes, unnecessary words, & unessential content. We consulted with Vaughn, & he approved this flow.
Theme song: Secret Wilderness’ theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field.
Other music: We used the tracks “The Backrooms Music Vol. 20,” “Bar Performance 10: Solo Cello & Piano,” “Lost Place Atmospheres Vol. 2,” “Podcast Music Vol. 4 [Mystery Ambience],” “Dream Of A Dream 2,” “The Backrooms Music Vol. 6,” “Disturbing Sounds 2 [for your neighbors],” & “Halo Stream Music Vol. 10,” by Sascha Ende. This music is free for commercial use under the CC BY 4.0 license.